Earned, Not Given Freely + 5 of Blooms

I've been doing another tarot challenge over on Instagram, #tarotselflove. I chose the Wooden Tarot for this one, because I wanted to get comfy working with this deck. For so long it has sat on my wichin' table collecting plant and dust matter. While occasionally I would work with the major cards, I did not work with it in its whole form.

I have an interview I have done with it coming up soon, that I want to post here. Perhaps more too, because this deck is... different. It's a challenger and will shake up your tarot world once you start reading with it.

While I've been throwing daily draws over in my Daily Oracle section, I wanted to highlight this card here. It was a tough one. It not only gave me a powerful answer, but I learned a lesson in it too.

Ok, so you're sitting with your cards and you ask a question.

Shuffle shuffle.

You draw a card.

It makes no sense.

None.

No connection. It's not even relevant to your question...

STOP.

Now, dig. Dig deep down. There is an answer, there always is. If we aren't challenged, how will we ever grow?

This was the card I pulled for todays prompt: What should I be more grateful for?

When I looked at this, I almost reshuffled. What is even here to be grateful for? This is desolation, destruction. If you have ever stood in a clear cut, something is clearly missing. Those of us deeply connected to the land and its unseen and seen inhabitants knows this feeling of loss, anger, abuse, greed.

What is to be grateful here? I asked.

I dug, I searched.

It's about finding a way out of an ugly place, or transforming it.

You have to find your way out of it, or learn how to spur new growth. 5 of Blooms says, be grateful because the means with which to navigate those lands and make good on it requires finding your own tools. Be grateful for the experience of earning those abilities and tools, because they are not just given freely.

These tools are earned and learned through the experience of pain, loss and suffering. With them, we can move forward and face future challenges better equipped to handle what they may throw at us, with grace, understanding and compassion.

When you’re overwhelmed by despair, all you can see is suffering everywhere you look. You feel as if the worst thing is happening to you. But we must remember that suffering is a kind of mud that we need in order to generate joy and happiness. Without suffering, there is no happiness.
— Thich Nhat Hanh

This is why I love tarot. It really gives us the opportunity to learn and face aspects of ourselves that are not always in plain sight.